January 26, 2011


I can't let today finish until I make this blog entry...today is an important day to me.  Today is the 10th anniversary of the day I came out to my family.  There were one or two friends, and a psycho hose beast now ex-girlfriend that knew before my family did...but not long before. After I told my family, I never again hid my sexuality.  I am proud of myself for coming out and proud and not going back into the closet.  

And even though it has taken some explaining and education for my family to accept me as I am, they let me explain and educate...and I know a lot of people don't even have that option.  I thank god every day for giving me a family that accepted me instead of cutting all ties with me. I'm lucky, and I know it.

So...here's to ten more years of me being myself!  I hope that more people are given the chance to be themselves!  We have recently made a massive step forward in that department with the repeal of Don't Ask, Don't Tell...but there are miles and miles to go before the equality fight can end.

January 24, 2011

Dilemma resolved!

Well, I won't have to worry who I am going to root for in the Super Bowl...the Bears sucked ass!  Seriously, they played an awful game!  So it's:
It would be awesome if they win a 7th Super Bowl! I can't wait for the game...and then after that a new episode of Glee finally! It's going to be a groovy Sunday! :)  And then the next day Gina and I will be celebrating her birthday!  YAY!  Lunch, cake and fun! :)

January 21, 2011


I'm getting excited for the AFC championship game on Sunday.  That tends to happen when your favourite team is in the game. ;) But, I have this tiny dilemma, the NFC championship game is also going to be awesome...Bears and Packers is always a good game! So here is the dilemma part...if the Bears win their game they go to the Superbowl.  If the Steelers win their game they go to the Superbowl. What am I supposed to do if my two football teams play each other in the Superbowl?!  Who do I root for?! I know in the grand scheme of things, this is tiny bordering on insignificant, but it does mean something for me. I'm also getting ahead of myself...since the games aren't until Sunday! I need to come up with an awesome yellow and black design for my nails. ;)

January 15, 2011


The Steelers have an NFL playoff game this afternoon, and I am already pumped and ready to go! I know where my Steelers T-shirt is.  My Steelers sweat shirt, my Steelers earrings, am already drinking out of my Steelers mug and I am currently painting my nails black and yellow and my Terrible Towel is on the back of the couch...ready for me to be twirling it. One of my build-a-bear bears has a scaled down terrible towel; it's pretty adorble.  But I'm not obsessed, ;)  I have a minor obsession...no big deal. ;) I can quit any time. ;)

Okay and on a completely non-related subject...why is it even if I pee before I start doing my nails, at some point while they are still wet do I have to pee again? Am I the only one this happens to?

January 11, 2011

Winter came late and brought the cold!

It has been so cold here! Winter arrived a bit later than usual and it brought bitter cold and snow with it!  I am not liking the cold one bit!  Monday I had an appointment, and I had to be outside, in the cold, waiting for my ride. It was about 9*F when I was waiting.  I had on leggings, pants, T-shirt, and another T-shirt, my jacket, a hat, a scarf, and gloves!  I still felt cold, I also felt like the kid in A Christmas Story..."I can't put my arms down!" LOL! 

And because fate has a sense of humor even more sick than my own...I get to do it again today.  Only instead of late afternoon I get to do it in the morning.  We are not amused! I need to get my butt to bed, cos 8 am is going to come fast.  God how I hate mornings!

January 7, 2011

Sick and tired!

I am really sick of being sick and tired.  It feels like so much has happened with my health all at once, and to be honest it's really overwhelming. All this new stuff to learn about, to figure out how to cope with...and it's not like the other stuff goes away, it needs the same attention it has been getting, if not more.

It scares me that I have been admitted to the hospital twice recently, for multi-day stays.  I don't like being in the hospital, but even more than hating being in the hospital I hate lugging around an oxygen tank every time I leave the house.  Of all the medical related equipment I have had to deal with, the oxygen tank is the one I am most embarrassed by.  I don't know why, it just is, I guess.

I think the thing that bugs me most is that I've been sick since I was 14 years old! Yeah, 14. I haven't gotten a single not sick day since then. I don't get to take a break from this, it's 24 hours a day, 7 days a week for 21 years! That's a long time...and that number is just going to get bigger.

I also know that even though I want to quit and not play anymore...that won't happen.  I will manage all the new sick along with the old sick because that's the only thing I know how to do. As much as I really would like to give up, I can't do it...I've tried.  I know that's a good thing, but it's also a pain in the ass!

January 3, 2011

Retail Therapy

I do love retail therapy!  I had quite a bit of it yesterday!
I rolled out of bed feeling kind of "blah" and decided rather than rolling right back into my bed as soon as I took my meds that I would call Gina and see if she wanted to go to Build-a-Bear workshop.  She did! :)  I had Christmas money to spend, and I have been wanting to get my bear Owen a playmate. ;)  So off to the mall we went.  Usually malls are hard for me, even with my walker...but with the addition of the oxygen it was no problem! :)  I bought crazy earrings that I have loved for six months...they were half off so I felt like I could afford them.  Here is a picture of them...

 I know they are massive, but they are not the biggest earrings I have ever owned!  I showed a picture of them to my parents and my dad couldn't believe they were earrings and is convinced they would pull him over.  My response was, "They aren't really your style anyway, Dad."  I also got jewelry at Forever 21 and Claire's. :)

And I got a playmate for Owen Bear...
Say hello to, Toshiko Bear. :) Yes, they are named after Torchwood Characters...no they really aren't in "costume" right now.  Owen bear does have scrubs and a little lab coat complete with an "I'm a mess" pin...but he was sick of wearing them. ;)

Here are Tosh Bear and Owen Bear together...

Cute little couple, aren't they? :)

So, mission accomplished, I spent my Christmas money on fun things, I had a fun time with Gina and I got jewelry and a new teddy bear out of it.  Yup...retail therapy worked perfectly! ;)

January 1, 2011

Brand new blog for a brand new year!

Oh, look at this all shiny and new...what am I going to do with it? In a perfect world, I would update this every day and be witty and sarcastic and people would love my blog. In the real world, I'd be happy if I updated once a week, and I will get a few new readers.

Brand new year, brand new decade, brand new day...brand new blog. Hmm...I like the way that sounds.