Look at this...I'm baaack.....
I had intended to write every day this month...but I think the whole migraine turned into fractured ankle is a pretty good excuse, really. Plus, let's face it...not a lot happens to me. I do tend to avoid leaving my house unless it's necessary.
Yesterday I went to see the ankle specialist. He confirmed what the ER doc said...distal fracture of the right tibia and overstretched ligament. Happily not a surgical case. Unhappily I am stuck in the damn boot for at least six weeks. I hate this thing already...I would love to burn it. Mind you, it's plastic...so I wouldn't really do that. But I wish I could! At least I don't have to use the crutches...I can if I need to. Trust me I won't need to...hate the bloody things more than the boot even! I also was not given any more painkillers, other than the few crappy ones the ER gave me. Apparently "I won't need them" can I just say one thing...fuck you. I have a broken bone and a ligament injury how will I not need them? I really do hurt a lot. More than I care to admit...but I am tired of being tough here. This fucking hurts and it hurts a lot! I am sick of pain being a criminal offense...it's legit...I didn't go into the ER with some vague I hurt gimme drugs symptoms I have a broken bone, I saw the bloody X-ray. I am not sure what to do...except suffer as usual in mostly silence and be angry about it. Eventually I will accept...today I am angry...and I feel justified in that anger.
Frustrating. I mean my collar bone hasn't been healed for that long and now this...I am honestly sick of being physically broken. I think I can handle the mental broken so much easier. Some people might want to argue that one with me...
We had snow...lots of snow. What I can see of it is very pretty. My windows get a lot of condensation on them...and then it freezes so I can't see very well out my windows right now and my apartment does not have a defrost setting... ;)
The bed is calling my name, I am sleepy. I have not slept well since Tuesday when I hurt myself... a nap is in order here...Dr Holly's orders...
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